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you think about it
and you get disgusted.
did the others did it as well.
no, they didn't.
but you did.
so remember the feeling.
remember the shame.
and stop
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[31 Aug 2011|01:45am] |
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you keep finding faults with yourself,
and so you feel you should not deserve anything.
there doesn't seem to be anything appealing about you.
what now?
so now, you go with anything that comes along.
you will surrender everything you have.
to the person who at least showed you interest.
whether true or untrue.
you are ugly.
you tell yourself.
you became enemies with the mirror.
it shows you too many new flaws as you look in.
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[15 Oct 2010|08:36pm] |
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if you don't feel that you deserve it,
then it will probably not come for you.
and therefore i shall not have.
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how far can you go without money?
how happy can you be without money?
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i feel sick, lousy and unmotivated.
my work seems pathetic and imitations.
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[01 Jul 2010|12:48am] |
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i don't know what has come over me.
an innocent message.
turned out to more disruptive than i imagined.
u din reply.
after i said i missed u.
i do not want to destroy your life.
ironically i don't even feel like i can ever do that.
but yet.
it's so very unbelievable how much you affect me.
till not. i cannot stop tearing.
the possibility of me going over to wherever you are.
is so possible.
but yet you deny me of that.
you made me.
you made me into someone.
someone who would take anything that comes along.
anyone that would accept me.
am i worth more? or less?
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[23 Jun 2010|09:43am] |
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你不会知道你偶尔偶尔的浮现在我脑海中的数次。
我也就这么这么的想起你的一切。
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[22 Jun 2010|06:49pm] |
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packing can be somewhat sad.
afterall it's been 5 years.
tearing up pieces of paper that you've kept.
reminders of things that u've done.
things that you didn't finish.
things that you could have done better.
taking down the pictures that form your wall.
where will they stay now?
names that trigger a memory
wondering how you might have or might not have affected their lives.
i will miss these.
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[15 Apr 2010|07:46pm] |
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i sometimes think my friends don't get me.
i'm sorry...
ok.
have your lives.
you don't have to tell me anything.
of course.
i am just so anal about everything.
lead your own life.
i am too tired to bother anymore.
so don't expect me to be there when you need me.
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[26 Jan 2010|06:43pm] |
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sorry, but i really don't feel like smiling at all.
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[24 Oct 2009|07:09pm] |
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i hate you.
what the fuck is it?
is it really so difficult.
i hate myself.
why do i even bother?
isn't already obvious?
give the fuck up.
fuck fuck fuck
what about when I need company?
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[27 Aug 2009|12:50am] |
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why is it that when i am sad
i get no comfort?
then why do i give it to others?
or maybe what i gave wasn't really it.
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[23 Aug 2009|06:31pm] |
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i need a mask.
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[16 Jul 2009|12:01pm] |
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i need you to make me better.
cause i know you can.
to calm me down.
and to teach me once more.
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[07 Jul 2009|12:41am] |
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ok... i am extremely jealous of you
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[06 Jul 2009|11:45pm] |
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i don't know why
that you are the only one that still tingles me.
you give me electric thrills.
maybe it is true.
i don't it when it comes easy.
and so i give you all my time.
and where were you when i needed yours?
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[19 May 2009|11:41pm] |
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the need to feel wanted
sometimes makes you do silly things.
things that you regret thereafter.
things that you can live without.
a thing to say,
probably for the weak.
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[14 Apr 2009|07:00pm] |
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life was so much simplier with you.
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[11 Apr 2009|03:40am] |
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it seems to be more difficult now.
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[17 Dec 2008|01:45pm] |
there is just a tinge of pain.
who am i kidding.
i am hurting
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[04 Dec 2008|02:02pm] |
amazing lyrics...
如烟
作词：五月天石头/阿信
作曲：五月天石头/阿信
我坐在床前 望著窗外 回忆满天
生命是华丽错觉 时间是贼 偷走一切
七岁的那一年 抓住那只蝉 以为能抓住夏天
十七岁的那年 吻过他的脸 就以为和他能永远
有没有那么一种永远 永远不改变
拥抱过的美丽都 再也不破碎
让险峻岁月不能在脸上撒野
让生离和死别都遥远 有谁能听见
我坐在床前 转过头看 谁在沉睡
那一张苍老的脸 好像是我 紧闭双眼
曾经是爱我的 和我深爱的
都围绕在我身边
带不走的那些 遗憾和眷恋
就化成最后一滴泪
有没有那么一滴眼泪 能洗掉后悔
化成大雨降落在 回不去的街
再给我一次机会 将故事改写
还欠了他一生的 一句抱歉
有没有那么一个世界 永远不天黑
星星太阳万物都 听我的指挥
月亮不忙著圆缺 春天不走远
树梢紧紧拥抱著树叶 有谁能听见
耳际 眼前 此生重演
是我来自漆黑 而又回归漆黑
人间 瞬间 天地之间
下次我 又是谁
有没有那么一朵玫瑰 永远不凋谢
永远骄傲和完美 永远不妥协
为何人生最后会像一张纸屑
还不如一片花瓣曾经鲜艳
有没有那么一张书签 停止那一天
最单纯的笑脸和 最美那一年
书包里面装满了蛋糕和汽水
双眼只有无猜和无邪 让我们无法无天
有没有那么一首诗篇 找不到句点
青春永远定居在 我们的岁月
男孩和女孩都有吉他和舞鞋
笑忘人间的苦痛 只有甜美
有没有那么一个明天 重头回一遍
让我再次感受曾 挥霍的昨天
无论生存或生活 我都不浪费
不让故事这么的后悔
有谁能听见 我不要告别
我坐在床前 看著指尖 已经如烟
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